This is a variation on the LovingKindness meditation you may wish to try if it feels uncomfortable to send good wishes to yourself.
Many people beginning a LovingKindness practice feel odd, shy or uncomfortable directing good wished toward themselves. Many feel they do not deserve such kindness. Some feel it’s just weird to wish well for oneself. Others feel it’s immodest. These feelings are very common.
There is a little twist you can try, that may help you move through these feelings and . . .